The "strange friend".

Today I realize that I don't understand any types of friendship.
I always try hard to keep friends I met online, friends I know in person or even friends from childhood.
But I'm person who keep a lot of myself to myself and sometimes I know I am very hard person to deal.
 I mean, I met some people online trough the years and some of them became really close to me, and me to them as we know each other like forever.
 We have shared secrets that I would never share it with friends I know in person because I think is easily to do that online.
But sometimes I think at some point I don't know why, starts all those demands with no senses.
We create expectation about each other and like an Italian friend always says emotions are x10000 online.
All friendships that became too close has that kind of small and silly demands that tear friends apart and when sometimes the person regret the broke up and want the friendship back together is difficult to me.
 I try to keep on with the friendship, but  I have that unexplained feeling that make the person "a stranger friend" for me, even if I know the darkest secret of them.
I cant help myself doubting about somethings.
 I don't know why I feel like that; maybe people after some deep stuffs shared, a part of a person is lock up to you forever, even if you never talk to that person again.
Doesn't mean every time that started to talk again will be same.
 I don't know how to explain myself about it; that's why I keep this very clearly when I notice that a friendship is becoming stronger.
Well, maybe I'm strange, and crazy person like some people says to me, but it's like how I am, and I can't change it.
So I feel deeply sorry and sad when a friendship ends in my life.
Sometimes I know we can't avoid such things to happen.
But even when "end" happens, I am that kind of person that don't stop liking even if I don't talk with that person anymore.
 I don't change my first feelings for that person.
Maybe it is hope, I don't know.

C'est la vie :)



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I know I am hard to understand and creepy sometimes but every time a friendship starts in my life, I wanna this.

just like that.

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FAITH

This time is hurting.

"Sometimes it lasts in LOVE, but sometimes it HURTS instead..."

Double-death

Stay safe out there this weekend!

We all already got infected!!

What am I doing with my life? I'm so pale...I should get out more,I should eat better.
My posture is terrible.I should stand up straighter.People would respect me more, if I stood up straighter.
What's wrong with me?
I just want to connect...Why can't I connect with people?
Oh, right.
It's because I'm dead.
I shouldn't be so hard on myself. I mean, we're all dead.

I wish I could introduce myself, but I don't remember my name anymore.
I mean, I think it started with an "S.."but that's all I have left.I can't remember my name,
or my parents, or my job.
Although my hoodie would suggest,I was unemployed.It's kind of a bummer.

Well, I think this is basically a better introducing for people nowadays...
Needless to say that, but the internet is here to stay, it`s integrated into every aspect of life, for anything you can think of, internet is there, but the internet is also completely changing who you are.While the Internet does a great job at connecting people from all over the world (usually in order to have regretful sex), just because you’ve met people from all over the world doesn’t mean you have the same wisdom as someone who’s actually traveled all over the world. You may have plenty of information, but without the context of experience, it means very little, despite the feeling that you know how things really work.
I’m sure this one needs no explanation, but just to be safe: If you spend all your time sitting at a desk or on your couch with a computer on your lap, you’re going to get fat and lazy very lazy, mentally and physically, the lazier you get, the fatter you get. I`m not saying that everyone get fat and lazy cause of that but nowadays I think the most are...for some people its worse, because they only realize when is too obese to masturbate themselves...then what?? Depression, suicidal thoughts...
No matter how entertaining the Internet can be, it’s making you boring as all hell. Go out into the world, travel, explore, drink, fight, f**k – just do something interesting that doesn’t involve a keyboard and a screen. That way, you’ll actually have some good stories to tell, some scars to show, something interesting to say. I do like internet myself, but some friends are just out of control, so I need to say it, if you are one of those kinds of friends, please get yourself together and hang out with your real friends sometimes.
I watched a movie another day Warm Bodies and realize that zombies already exist...

*parts of the text I took from the movie Warm Bodies. =)

And remember you can do it! even if you are in a terrible shape already..hehe

If I could guess...

If I could guess, what to do or what to say...something that makes love arise and bring you to me,
the time will pass and I'm gonna take this felling forever everywhere I go.
As I walking looking at the street, little figures, quickly moving my feet.
Well this is life.
Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like you and me.
They're lonely. Probably missing somebody, sometimes somebody they're never met in person.
meet people through internet sometimes sucks.
They're in love with someone they probably shouldn't be in love with.
They have secrets you wouldn't believe.
They wish, dream and hope for a better day.
They look out the window whenever they're are in the car or on a bus or a train and they're watching people on the street and wondering what they've been through.
They wonder if there are people out there like them.
They're like you and me and we could tell them everything and they would understand.
You're never alone.
Even if sometime you have that feeling that there's not a person in the world who loves you.




I thought I was done with feeling like this.
but whatever...
I care just until I say or write something anyway.
So if you are thinking that doesn't matter what I say or do, well