My Gump World

Therefore, since we have been justified  through faith,  we have peace  with God through our Lord Jesus Christ,     through whom we have gained access  by faith into this grace in which we now stand.  And we boast in the hope  of the glory of God.   Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;   perseverance, character; and character, hope.   And hope  does not put us to shame, because God’s love  has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit,  who has been given to us. You see, at just the right time,  when we were still powerless,  Christ died for the ungodly.   Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die.     But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.   Since we have now been ...

How do we find our true purpose? Is it something we're born with? Is something we must learn over time?

Last night, for sure, was the worst night ever. Was an insomnia nightmare. I still remember the pain, I felt inside, I could hear the sound of me screaming, like was somebody else, and I remember thinking that girl screaming...she is not going to survive, If? these things continuing to happen. I felt dead for a moment. I thought I was better about many things, but I realized yesterday that I wasn't sure about anything anymore. I don't understand or I don't want to understand at all. Cannot sleep well for days and when I finally fall asleep for like 15 minutes, I am having those creepiest dreaming that I cannot explain, cannot even understand myself. Today I felt my organs shaking like earthquake inside me and my body desperate for a rest during the work, and every day this time I start to feel like I had rest, it is weird, because in the end of night, when I get in the bed, I know that will happen all over again, and it is repeatedly continuing for days. Most days i...

Sometimes I love to pretend I am alone,  Like completly alone,  Maybe post apocalypse or a plague, whatever... No one left to act like normal for, No need to hide who I really am and would be... FREEING. #myown #notmyown