Thursday, July 27, 2017

How do we find our true purpose?
Is it something we're born with?
Is something we must learn over time?

Thursday, February 2, 2017

For how long yet?

Last night, for sure, was the worst night ever. Was an insomnia nightmare.
I still remember the pain, I felt inside, I could hear the sound of me screaming, like was somebody else, and I remember thinking that girl screaming...she is not going to survive,
If? these things continuing to happen.
I felt dead for a moment. I thought I was better about many things, but I realized yesterday that I wasn't sure about anything anymore. I don't understand or I don't want to understand at all.
Cannot sleep well for days and when I finally fall asleep for like 15 minutes, I am having those creepiest dreaming that I cannot explain, cannot even understand myself. Today I felt my organs shaking like earthquake inside me and my body desperate for a rest during the work, and every day this time I start to feel like I had rest, it is weird, because in the end of night, when I get in the bed, I know that will happen all over again, and it is repeatedly continuing for days. Most days is not that bad, but some days it is bad. I know something is not right and same time I know it is right. Why is feeling so wrong doing the right thing. Maybe I am not doing the right thing as I think. I don't know for how long those things will continue to happen, but Something I know... I won’t survive, if it not gets better.

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Sometimes I love to pretend I am alone, 
Like completly alone, 
Maybe post apocalypse or a plague, whatever...
No one left to act like normal for,
No need to hide who I really am and would be...