Friday, September 23, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Friday, June 17, 2016
Today I realized that most people do really care about themselves only...
Doesn't matter how much you say you like them or how much care you do about their feelings, it's all individualism nowadays for most of the people, it's like, you are welcome to my life but touch nothing please.
But Beat me, hate me, judge me, because comes a time that you don't see bad things as bad things anymore.
Even when bad things happens to you, you realized that's is what makes you in what you really are.
It's all ordeals, probation, experiences.
There is no lost in life, if is not blessing, it's lesson.
Saturday, May 14, 2016
Sunday, April 10, 2016
Thursday, March 31, 2016
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Saturday, December 5, 2015
Friday, November 13, 2015
Monday, September 14, 2015
Monday, August 31, 2015
Friday, July 24, 2015
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Recently I've been,hopelessly reaching,
out for this boy who's out of this world.
He's got a girlfriend, she drives me round the bend
Cos she's younger than me.
But so many nights now
I find myself thinking about him now.
'Cause obviously,he's out of my league
I'm wastin' my time 'Cause he'll never be mine
But how can I win
I know I never will be good enough for him.
Saturday, June 27, 2015
Thursday, January 22, 2015
My mind is a dark cave.
So many twisted things hide in the shadows that I'm afraid to shine a light on...
I'm good for while but then like a swicth turns off somewhere and all I'm left with is the darkness of my mind, but each time it seems like I sink deeper and deeper, scared that someday I wont make it back up.
I know will sounds weird, but sometimes I like to be there, it's dark side but after coming back I think more clearly, make better judgements of people and things and feel somehow safe. I'm pretty sure that most of the better decisions I made was after backing up from it.
Something is wrong with me?! Maybe, I can't tell much about myself.
But there is something I can tell, light can not exist without darkness, each has it's purpose.
Sometimes it's reassuiring knowing that I'm not the only one pretending to be normal.
Friday, October 24, 2014
Today I realize that I don't understand any types of friendship.
I always try hard to keep friends I met online, friends I know in person or even friends from childhood.
But I'm person who keep a lot of myself to myself and sometimes I know I am very hard person to deal.
I mean, I met some people online trough the years and some of them became really close to me, and me to them as we know each other like forever.
We have shared secrets that I would never share it with friends I know in person because I think is easily to do that online.
But sometimes I think at some point I don't know why, starts all those demands with no senses.
We create expectation about each other and like an Italian friend always says emotions are x10000 online.
All friendships that became too close has that kind of small and silly demands that tear friends apart and when sometimes the person regret the broke up and want the friendship back together is difficult to me.
I try to keep on with the friendship, but I have that unexplained feeling that make the person "a stranger friend" for me, even if I know the darkest secret of them.
I cant help myself doubting about somethings.
I don't know why I feel like that; maybe people after some deep stuffs shared, a part of a person is lock up to you forever, even if you never talk to that person again.
Doesn't mean every time that started to talk again will be same.
I don't know how to explain myself about it; that's why I keep this very clearly when I notice that a friendship is becoming stronger.
Well, maybe I'm strange, and crazy person like some people says to me, but it's like how I am, and I can't change it.
So I feel deeply sorry and sad when a friendship ends in my life.
Sometimes I know we can't avoid such things to happen.
But even when "end" happens, I am that kind of person that don't stop liking even if I don't talk with that person anymore.
I don't change my first feelings for that person.
Maybe it is hope, I don't know.
C'est la vie :)
I know I am hard to understand and creepy sometimes but every time a friendship starts in my life, I wanna this.